You probably live your life on daily auto pilot ruled by routines and life choices.
Regardless of what happens at any particular point in time, life goes on.
Because you don’t know what to do with your life, solitude is probably the best chance you will get at having a hold of your habits, daily routine, mindset, and subconscious control through critical thought processes.
Relapsing into your solitude self doesn’t mean you are weird or dumb at all; it’s okay to be quiet. Go on, spend your free time the way you like, not the way you think you’re supposed to.
Use your solitude to work on your mental models; coordinate your mind and inadvertently control your life by secretly learning about big ideas while you practice critical thinking. Think in a multidisciplinary way and diversify your perspectives.
Spending time alone gives you time to wonder, to search for the truth and discover more of yourself. Feel comfortable being alone and be confident of who you are. Don’t be afraid of the SOLITUDE that comes with raising your standards, especially the ones that comes from well thought out personal principles.
After all, solitude is better than bad company. You cannot grow around toxicity as it will ultimately distract you from the ability to focus on yourself and therefore impact the ability to work on personal growth and evolution in life.
Remember that a person who is okay with being alone is a powerful person.